Scared Shitless....

I woke up this fine Easter Sunday and was getting ready and I asked Glenna (my wife) to turn on my computer so I could check something real quick. When I got in my room I was looking at the following message "insert boot disk. boot drive failure"

My heart sank......we have 2 computers, one a crappy family one I bought about 4-5 years ago, that is just for general stuff. "My" computer is the 2nd one, it's the powerhouse I bought just over a year ago when I started doing video and stuff. I wanted a machine that could handle all the grand plans I had. So of course that was the one with the "boot drive failure" message on it.

I know it's just a computer and it can be replaced but what can't be replaced is all the video that is stored on the hard drive. Now I back up pretty often but since the move things have got out of whack a bit and I had not had a chance to back up my short filmand all of our Zombie Tale stuff. That and some other stuff. But the thought that I may have lost my movie and the ZT stuff is what made me want to puke right then and right there.

I mean I had poured my heart and soul into those projects and so did Rob for the ZT stuff, well he is always there we are partners/friends/lovers...ok, not "lovers" in a bad sense....I am sure you know what I mean ( I am kidding) Anyway I have been wanting to create full blown DVD's of the movie and ZT stuff to give to friends and all those that helped us out. That is one of the main reason's I didn't back them up yet, I kept meaning to get to it. And now I sat looking at a black screen and I just wanted to die.

I had bought the extended warrenty in such a case but I prayed I would never have to use it. Knowing there was nothing I could do today didn't help matters any. I am the kind of guy who has to fix stuff "right now/right here", well at least on some stuff. Things like this, I can't let it sit. Well since there was nothing I could do, we went to Glenna's aunts and had Easter, but my mind kept wandering back home to the computer. "Was everything gone?" "Could they bring it back and the hard drive still be intact?" "Or was I just screwed?"

I didn't mind so much if it was just my stuff, it would suck but feeling like I let other people down (which I know they would have understood and would have been cool), but I don't like letting people down. My word is my bond. When I tell someone I am there for them or that I will do something for them I do it. (I am not always timely....but I think all of my friends would tell you that they can count and depend on me......I hope, anyway)

Well we get home and Glenna says, "just try it again" (even though I had tried about 20 times this morning) so I did.......and low and behold it came up. Now I don't know what the heck is happening but I am wasting no time. As I write this right now, I am backing up the remainder of the video I need to back up. I know I am living on borrowed time here it appears but if I can back everything up.....well at least you can put software and stuff back on pretty easy.....memories, as I know all to well, visual memories can be gone in an instant. ( I have no pictures of me (well I have 3 I think) growing up, me or my sister and my family, the pictures were destroyed durning my parents 2nd divorce) It's why I am so anal about my video and pictures....

So who knows how long this computer's got and I now for sure now, I need to get me a big old honking 500gb external drive along with my dvd backups....

Wish me luck..

Heath, who is still scared shitless right now.....